24.07.2013
This is my first blog ..
I decided this morning to start a 7day fast, why.. I need to clear my thoughts, I would need to build and repair my relationship with God, I would need to lose some serious weight and I have just broken up with the person I thought i would be spending the remainder of my days on earth with.
So its just gone 7 minutes past 9 am, wednesday morning, I am listening to Sade .
I cant cry, I cant shout, I just feel numb incredibly numb, because i trusted someone .. one thing i always said not to do .. only only trust God .. he is the one person who would never let you down .. Men make stupid promises.
So I am in control of my life now .. I rely on the power and wits God has given me, no time for lala lands .. no time for fantasties ... no time stories ... its all about being calcualting , making the best decision for me .
Ok to my fast ... why my body needs the clearing out of rubbish ... i just need somewhere to write my tots .. i have fanstastic friends .. but i need somewhere i can hide where no one knows me .. where i disappear ..
